i admit i have not been faithful with blogger. sometimes, things happened so much and i dont really know what to say or how to say it. they say the blog is where u expressed EVERYTHING but then u know no one is going to let out their secrets just because they have the right to do so. and also there are ppl who wouldnt want others to know.

not to say that i have secrets or whatsoever.

a very big SORRY for missing out some names in my links. i accidentally deleted it due to my carelessness. i dont know whether u all still read my blog. it's also alright if u deleted my link in ur blog. it's perfectly alright.

and i know this template is like so old-school but i'm experimenting some stuffs. so for the moment it is this dull, white background. hahah!

for everyone's information, this blog is still alive. it's just that i probably have lost my knack for writing stuffs. or i probably got lost in time that i forgot i have my own blog. hahah! but i hope im able to tell some happy, sad, angry and funny stories. this blog has been deserted for months and i decided that i should at least write something to let ppl know that im still alive. right?

the good news is, it's already February. going to end my attachments on the 22nd. if anyone has a part-time job to recommend to me before i serve my country (probably in july or august), please do let me know. only nursing students can imagine having 6 months of attachment continuously. all those months of cleaning backsides, penises, bodies, legs and hands. those months where u get scolded for not attending to patients fast enough. not giving their food or medication on time. for stepping on their foot. for hitting their heads against the cotside. for making them wait in their wet and shitty pampers for long periods of time coz u're busy attending to another patient. for scolding them because they are so stubborn when it comes to taking medication. of course i lost my patience before, even though i looked the kind that wont lose patience. hahahaha! but it's all worth it. it's just worth it.

i worked in CDC and i take care of HIV patients. probably not a big deal to some people but it is to others. anyway, i just have to get this message across! if u really need to have sex, please bloody hell use a condom! this disease is already terrible, and to see many young ppl getting it is becoming a natural disaster. to be embarassed buying a condom is better than being embarassed having that disease. so yah... spread the word k. ppl who got this are just not lucky coz u know they could have visited prostitutes, or got infected with needles during blood transfusion or those babies who got infected through pregnancy. my friend says that women are always the victims. heck.. women are always victims of men. i guessed women are sometimes unlucky.

unlucky. yeah.

sometimes u're just not lucky in love.