i love kids!

the innocence. the cuteness.

i was with my friends last tuesday just to watch them played soccer. given my current condition, i still could not play. while watching them play, i felt slightly jealous or maybe angry that i wasn't able to play. i may be regretting having this injury.

anyway, i know i was probably foolish to go outside and watch ppl play soccer while knowing that i could feel this way. hahah! or maybe im just complaining.

hahah!

anyway, i brought my camera along to take pictures of my friends playing the sports. but the highlight of this article is actually not them.

it is THEM :)

since they were playing happily, i decided to capture their moments of happiness.

every children likes to pose!

for me, these 2 kids are the cutest. i love his fish bone t-shirt. hehe!

i think the kid wasn't comfortable when i carried him. hahah!


my friends told me i must ask their parents permission to take pictures with their kids or risk getting sued. of course, it wasn't true lah but i was so gullible to believe them.

i wish i could play too!!!! and not have to worry about work, or school, or money, or the way i wear. just eat and play :P

and finally!

look what i snapped for my brother's POP. i snapped MUHAIMIN in this picture and i didn't even knew until i uploaded it and saw it close-up. this is probably like finding wally.

2 more weeks till i start work :(

Happy CNY to all the chinese people out there!

i just got back from kl last tuesday. took the monday night bus and reached singapore at about 6.30 am tuesday. luckily it is still the holidays and there weren't a lot of people at the immigrations checkpoint and on the streets.


i am surprised that chinatown is still packed with people even though it is the CNY festival. looks like some of the local chinese people didn't go back to their kampung or hometown to celebrate with their family. instead, they still carry on with their businesses entertaining the tourists and locals alike.


i didn't do much shopping. but the others did major shopping like there is no tomorrow. so i spent abit of time waiting at starbucks and some coffee shops. it was relaxing though. hahah!


and when u are in malaysia, surely u will indulge yourself in food and glorious food. my other aim of this trip is for me to gain weight too! so we'll see how my weight in a few days to come.

actually, i wasn't sure whether i could go for the trip because of my current collarbone condition. i was thinking of going there with a wheel bag so that i wont have to carry it. but the bag is small and i chose to bring a big backpack instead. it was uncomfortable to carry the bag only on my left shoulder but guys have to tahan right. hahah!

i thought it was going to be the start of a bad trip because we missed the bus to KL! the bus was supposed was supposed to leave at 3pm but when we reached there at 3pm, the bus was gone. so we went to the counter where we bought the tickets and asked where the bus is. the lady at the counter told us the bus is at another platform. initially, our tickets stated that the bus was at platform 20. and she changed it to platform 18. so went back to platform 18 only to find out that there is no bus there. so we returned to the counter again and enquired. the lady looking panicked called a guy who looks scruffy to handle my problem. and he came and said:

scruffy guy - "sorry but your bus just left." ( talking in bochap manner)
me - "but we just reached exactly at 3pm and how can the bus leaves us without waiting?"
scruffy guy- "the bus leaves exactly at 3pm and u are late. sorry cannot do anything about it."

at this moment, i was going to say the F word but i kept my cool. but in the end, i had to argue with him.

me - "eh.. i know the bus will at least wait for 10 - 30 minutes for the passengers and now u are telling me that the bus suddenly wanted to leave punctually."
scruffy guy - "yes brother... we wont wait for people one. the bus leaves on time."

i had a good reason to complain because the platform where the bus was supposed to be had changed at the last minute. and how can the BUS NOT WAIT FOR US????
in the end, i told the guy to get us the bus no matter what. we did and got a very decent looking bus which looks like it was chartered by some third party company. i had no comment about the ride. it was just freaking uncomfortable. full stop.

this is for that man and all those people trying to cheat us -

DAMN IT! YOU THINK YOU CAN GET AWAY WITH IT AND CHEAT MY MONEY! NO FRIGGING WAY BECAUSE I AM NOT STUPID U BUGGER! I KNOW U SOLD OUR SEATS TO OTHER PEOPLE AND BECAUSE YOU SOLD IT, YOU HAD TO SEND THE BUS AWAY SO THAT WE WONT BE ABLE TO BOARD IT. YOU STUPID LIAR. YOU THINK I DONT KNOW YOUR TRICK. I KNEW YOU WERE GOING TO GIVE EXCUSES AND BY SAYING THAT THE BUS LEAVES ON TIME WHEN WE REACHED ON TIME PROVED THAT YOU ARE A BAD LIAR.

honestly, i would have said the F word in my blog. but i'm just afraid i have young readers who chanced upon my blog and see atrocious languages.

anyway, it was good to know that the trip didn't turned out bad or worse after that incident. i only wished that these people just wont cheat passengers. i mean, what if there is a poor malaysian who needs to go back to his hometown urgently and found out that his bus left way to early or there wasn't any bus at all in the first place to go with. and he would have to fork out another amount of his hard earned cash just to get back. stop it sia this ticket sellers.

no problem when we returned home.


just a bit tired from the trip (-_-)

i was reading nad's blog and she was talking about capturing the images of life and nature of another world. like a third world country like thailand or india. or a modern world country like maybe the western countries. whatever or wherever it is, the idea is to capture those moments.

something which i have deeply believed in the art of photography.

i have written an article about this before. but that was before ns, and ns definitely limits the time on my amateur hobby. yes i am an amateur. but i am also an explorer! yes i explore new things with my camera (hahah!) and i want to explore the world too. i know that many bloggers have said this many many many times before. they say they want to travel the world. they say they want to experience new cultures. they say want to see the other side of life.

like what?

see the poor people of africa? see the lives of the people living in one of the provinces of china? the red light districts of thailand? the beaches of australia? the mountains of japan?


if i had the talent, i would definitely want to become a National Geographic photojournalist. i'll probably grow old and addicted to that kind of job. and i will bring my future wife along too. i think there is nothing better than enjoying that moment in a scenic place with your loved one. singapore is redundant.


i remembered i did a video on environmental conservation back when i was in secondary 2. it was about conserving water. when everyone else used powerpoints and vanguard sheets, my group and i used a video camera. VANGUARD SHEETS or what... old school sia that thing. hahahah! anyway, we created something like a program show going around conducting interviews and at the same time narrating the importance of conserving our precious resources. and during our project evaluation, my teacher pointed out that i speak very softly like a girl. i didnt get angry because i knew i speak very softly. even ppl complained that i kind of mumbled jumbled my words. i must have irritated them i guessed.

the point of this story is just to tell u that i might do anything to protect the environment. so don't go pee in the sea, vomit in the reservoir or shit in the lake. coz i regretted when i urinated in the sea during an Outward Bound course in Pulau Ubin, because i knew my body was contaminated with it. yech!


remember! don't pee in the sea!

i just went for surgery yesterday. and now i have a metal implant inside my collarbone. it's not that bad.. the pain has definitely subsided after a day. i got to admit, right after the surgery, the feeling of my collarbone is definitely not good. i felt that my shoulder muscle was being stretched. but after yesterday night, the pain and the uncomfortable feeling went away.

and during the night, i wanted to take a piss. since i already got a jab in the butt, the nurse told me that i shouldnt go to the toilet alone and i had to pee in a urinal. that was the first time i had to pee in a urinal! so the curtains were drawn surrounding my bed. anyway, while i was trying to pee, i heard footsteps coming towards my bed. and a student nurse just opened the curtain and entered my area!

i knew she saw it. because i saw her eyes looking at it. god.. the embarrassment.

but my most happiest moment was being able to go home.


i don't know why i feel so lonely in the ward. i mean, there were some patients around with broken legs, knees and arms. i didn't talk to them. only one old guy who was beside me talked to me once and i responded by saying yes.

my friends came later at night, and for an hour, i felt so happy. they cheered me up. made me laugh. and for that hour, i knew that i need to be around ppl. after they left, i forced myself to sleep because i wanted to look forward to the next morning where at least i can see many ppl walking around.

but i couldn't sleep, and at that moment, thank god cass called. and the feeling of loneliness went away for awhile until she put down the phone. and again i had to force myself to sleep even though i felt a little bit sleepy.

then another 2 visitors came and they were there for 5 minutes. i was actually asleep when they came. but i am already thankful for that.

i tell myself that i do not want to stay in the hospital again. i could stay for a day but i won't want to stay more than that. no wonder patients looked depressed when i attended to them. the environment is so boring. but of course, we won't know when we fall sick or needed treatment in the hospital. so this time, i must really take care of myself.

yup.. i will take care of myself during my one month MC. yeas!

2008 is over and it is time to embrace the new year with peace and happiness!

well, i would prefer to have peace first then happiness because i am so saddened by the fact that so many people have died in the Israeli-Hamas conflicts. fathers losing their wives. mothers losing their children. children losing their mothers and so on and so forth. the worst part is most of the victims are children. it's crazy and i don't know how these Israeli soldiers can answer for their acts. same goes for the Hamas rocketeers who killed those innocent civilians in the southern part of Israel. can they really justify to God on why they have killed so many?

one day, i want to volunteer in a humanitarian aid relief group and go help those who suffer in whatever disaster or conflicts the victims face. i am sure that even with help, it is not enough to ease the pain of losing someone u love. i cannot imagine a mother holding a child with the limbs all gone. or a child sitting next to her mother with half of her body gone.

crazy this world is.

anyway, yesterday, something terrible happened. as usual, i would play soccer every sunday. and at every game, i always get the worst tackles from the opponents. i get kicked and pushed. heck! i even remembered someone punched me at the back of my head during a a soccer match. that was the time when i was still in Millennia Institute playing for the school team. but every time i get tackled, pushed, kicked and punched, i will always stand up and walk away. i have never retaliated. NEVER.

and yesterday, i got the worst tackle ever which has now stopped me from playing soccer.

i broke my collarbone.

i didnt believe that it was a freak accident. like i said earlier, i knew it was done out of malice. ppl may think i am exaggerating, but ask my mates who were there and they will tell u it's a case of bad intentions.

can u see my right clavicle sticking out?

i used my shoulder to break my fall because i know that if i use my hands, i will surely break my wrist. i already fractured my left wrist once and i dont really want to break the right one. and when i fell on my shoulder, i heard a dull crack. i stood up, felt my bones and i knew instantly that it was broken. the funny thing was, i said this to myself after i felt my broken clavicle:

SHIT! TOMORROW NEED TO WORK! HOW??

at least i didnt break my legs right? that's why i am happy.

im fine really. it's normal to have ur bones broken in these kind of games. so i was brought to the hospital thinking that i would need to go for a surgery and put the broken bone into one. after a few xrays, the doctor told me to go home!

WHAT THE HELL?

he said it's considered a mild injury and also because my bone did not pierce my skin. now at that time, i feel like giving him a broken collarbone too.

but since it's his recommendation, i decided to follow it. he referred me to a specialist whom i will be seeing this thursday and he prescribed me some painkillers. the truth is, my pain score is only about 1. there wasnt any sharp pain but i heard cracking sounds when i moved abit of my arm. and it's been okay since. the weird thing was that i went home with still a broken clavicle. it's like as if i went to hospital for nothing. but at least i got a referral.

my mum got pissed because the doctor didnt do anything about it. so everyday my mum gets worried. i'm not really worried coz i dont feel tremendous pain. it's just uncomfortable and i can only sleep in 2 positions which is lying on my back and lying on my left side of the body. luckily, i can still sleep soundly. so yeah, i'm okay. i can't play soccer for now but i hope i can still play after i recover.

right now, i'm only waiting for surgery.